Broken

It has just been one of those weeks - it seems like it's gone on forever. My Monday started with what I thought was a mild anxiety attack, Wednesday before lunch consisted of legit crying fit, and yesterday held some tears of its own. It's been a week of testing - I know God is stretching and growing me {which is what I want!} but no one said it would be easy. I was telling some friends this week that I know I'm not a very good problem solver & I don't handle pressure very well and I want to improve on those things - and boy did God give me a fighting chance! I didn't handle the first few circumstances very well, but as the week went on - I learned. I tried to handle things better, calmer, and I tried to stay in constant communication with the Lord.

Yesterday I went home during lunch to start getting stuff out for bunko last night at my house to find a broken refrigerator. Everything I was cooking was in coolers by the time I went back to work & the fridge repair guys came by and hopefully in a 1-2 weeks (and $400 later) our fridge will be working again. Oh the joys. I tried to just let it roll off my back - no biggie. Well then I attempted to make lasagna {for the first time} and lets just say 15 min before my friends were arriving I took it out and it was awful. in the trash. my sweet friend Julie graciously went to papa murphys to pick up some pizza! well then we had to cook it- and I accidentally left it on "pre heat" while I thought it was baking, but about an hour later that usual we finally ate! My guests were so gracious & I know they didn't care - but it was just a whirlwind of things not going right. Oh, and my disposal is broken too - so there's that.

Stephen and I have just been laughing lately on all the things that are broken {remember, we just paid to have my car fixed & various other things at home are broken}. I was reading in my "Jesus Calling" devotional this morning and guess what it said....

"You are feeling weighted down by a plethora of problems, both big and small. They seem to require more and more of your attention, but you must not give in to those demands. When the difficulties in your life feel as if they're closing in on you, break free by spending quality time with me. You need to remember who I am in all My Power and Glory. Then, humbly bring Me your prayers and petitions. Your problems will pale when you view them in the Light of my presence. You can learn to be joyful in Me, your savior, even in the midst of adverse circumstances. Rely on Me, your strength;' I make your feel like the feet of a deer, enabling you to go on the heights" Exodus 3:14; Habukkuk 3:17-19

Seriously? That is EXACTLY what I need to hear & what I was praying before I read that - that I would just have JOY in the Lord and that I would spend more time with Him. Being in constant communication with Jesus is what I seek. It's the only thing that will get me through. My HOPE is in Him. Thank you Lord for that message!

I hope everyone has a great weekend - we are headed close to my hometown for a friends wedding that I am in! Should be fun! Love to you all ~