January 11, 2013

brokenness restored.

I full believe that the greatest transformation towards intimacy with God came through my brokenness.  

I know that sounds crazy, but it's true.
I often times look back on the past 3 years and miss those hard times.
now, I don't really want to live in darkness all the time + I'm super thankful to be on the other side, but I know it was this crazy adoption process that God used to transformed me.

through my brokenness....god restored + healed + and transformed me!

it just hit me like a ton of bricks this week at church when our pastor was preaching out of Matthew 5.  Matthew 5: 4, "blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted."  

our pastor said, "contentment doesn't come because of the mourning, but in what God says he will do IN THE MIDDLE of the mourning."

its huge to know that god (in my brokenness) didn't abadon me.  I WILL be comforted!  he heals and restores and transforms us!

there is a level of transformation that happens in brokenness that can't happen any other way.

cool story - last year on my way to the created for care retreat, God was really speaking to my heart about restoration.  about brokenness and restoration and honestly I thought He was just talking about OTHER peoples brokenness that leads to transformation + restoration.  I was dreaming about ministry and what it looks like to minster to those who are broken.  I even dreamed a logo up!  broken/restored was on my heart.  you can read that post here.

ANYWAY!
God so spoke to me this week in that I was once broken and He RESTORED ME!!!!
through my brokeness, he restored and healed me.
I expierenced transformation + intamacy with Him that I wouldn't have any other way.

it was like he gave me a word for the season that was coming, and although it took a year to be fully revealed - I'm thankful He was with me the whole way!

amen!


When I got this tattoo, I knew it meant something but I still wasn't 100% sure what it meant for ME.
until last night. (story here)
now this permanent ink on my left foot will always remind me of the brokenness that God used to restore me in a season of my life.
it will always be an opportunity to share that experience with others who ask.
it will always remind me.

I want to be broken.
because I crave that intimacy with God.
I crave transformation.
even if it costs me something. 



22 comments:

  1. I love this Wynne. Thanks for sharing your heart friend. It is such a blessing. I can not agree more about intimacy through brokeness. I pray along with you for brokeness. Hope you are feeling better friend! Love!

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    1. thank you sweet krista! love you so much & so love your friendship and accountability in my life!

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  2. I really appreciate this post! I love the tattoo as well. Thank you for sharing.

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  3. Hi Wynne! I don't know if you remember me but we met when I was working at the soda fountain in Lake City. You had just gotten back from one of you trips to Africa and at that time you guys were looking at adopting Camp.

    Now I see that God blessed you with two beautiful babies! I have so enjoyed following pictures and blogs and I feel like I know you guys even though I really only met you once! I am rejoicing with you over your incredible blessings! Thanks for sharing your journey and everything God has done in your heart.

    I think you should bring your sweet babies to Lake City for a little soda fountain love! And so I can meet them in person!

    Blessings!!!

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    1. hey!
      YES I totally do! this is so amazing that you kept up with us from then! i love it! thank you so much for being a part of our story! how are you?? YES we are planning to come up to LC this summer!! I'll let you know :)

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  4. I'm Kyndel, by the way! Just realized my blog only shows up with our last name on it! :)

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  5. Wow what an amazing blog post. Thanks for sharing your heart, your so right God is so there in the midst of hardness. Having been suffering through illness since May I totally related. Through the brokenness can come a stronger woman of God. Thank you for making me feel less alone!

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    1. claire! you are not alone! we are all in this together - thats what makes life so beautiful, sharing our stories and struggles and knowing we aren't alone!

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  6. It is so true that He is with us when we are broken & often we only see that after..... longing to be changed and in HIM with you!

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  7. So beautifully written and true! God has shown me true redemption and restored my spirit through the most difficult trials in this life! You are such a blessing and your story is a true reflection of God's incredible grace and plan.

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  8. So perfect. So true. So beautiful. I know all too well about that brokenness. Thanks Wynn for the reminder.

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  9. Beautiful! I love the tattoo placement. That's where I want to get my word put...if I ever get the nerve to do it! ;)

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    1. you should get the nerve to do it :) it's addicting...

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  10. LOVE this! And so relate to what you are saying friend! =)
    I miss the years that were hardest in my life, in a way because they were in the years I was closest to the Lord. I don't really want to go back and repeat them either! But I am so thankful of the fruit that came from them.
    Much Love!
    L

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    1. love you sweet friend! YES it's that closeness to the lord that i want. thankful for the fruit!

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  11. beautiful tattoo!! and thanks for your words. I always love reading your blog!

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  12. I agree 100% Wynne! Over the last almost 5 years as we have battled infertility and adoption wait-times, the Lord has been SO good and gracious. He has drawn near to my heart in ways I could have never imagined. None of our pain or mourning is ever wasted in His hands!

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    1. i love that megan. i know how hard that can be - nothing we would ever chose for ourselves but god can do so much through it. thanks for sharing!

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