I can't share all of the details with you now but I wanted to let everyone know that I will be returning to the States on Tuesday & I will not have Camp + Asher with me. The paperwork on our case is still being processed & it looks like the best thing for me to do right now is come home for a while. We have NO DOUBT or fear that camp + asher won’t come home - they will! It’s just not in the timing that we thought. It’s been 8 weeks since I left Midland for my Ethiopian adventure, and over 7 weeks since I’ve seen my best friend & husband. The Lord has spoken to me this week & I know this is the right time to come home and rest before Stephen & I return to Ethiopia for our embassy appointment & to bring our babies home. Please be praying that our cases process quickly & we'll be back in Ethiopia very soon. A lot has been happening the past few days - so I thought I'd go back a few days and fill you in....
8.22
today was really hard.
after my talk with carol last monday (the day that gave me a grey hair) i knew in my heart I am supposed to go home. I felt peace and then I got a new wind & new energy.
it’s was a great (and difficult) week with the boys but I finally felt like I said what I needed to say - asking them if they have truly asked Jesus into their hearts.
I’ve planted the seed & I’ll keep watering it. but now I need to trust Jesus to preform the miracles. he’s the only one who can transform those boys from the inside out.
now - the thought of going home haunts me again.
and reading in Live Dead journal this morning I was really convicted.
it was all about sacrifice - and I realized that it wasn’t as much of a sacrifice for me to be here this summer. I am living out my dream.
it’s Stephen who’s making the sacrifice.
and it seems like, once again, I need to lay aside MY dreams and MY plans for the Lords.
to put my ministry, my boys, and my dreams up on the altar and trust God with them.
I remember last time I gave him my dreams (of getting pregnant)....and I am living in the outcome. God gave me a supernatural love & passion for orphans and for the people of Korah, Ethiopia. and I will NEVER be the same, in Jesus name.
I can’t EVEN imagine my life without camp + asher and my kids in Korah.
can’t. even. imagine.
so, I will give my dreams and passion for being a missionary in Ethiopia to God.
I will respect & honor my husband and our marriage & go home to him.
i will go home to the most important job I have - being a wife!
and I will trust that God honors obedience.
i will pray that He brings me back here, with my husband, very very soon to bring home our precious babies.
the thought of going to the airport (with no doubt a van full of kids in tow) and getting on the plane to America all ALONE haunts me.
but there is no fear in love. perfect love drives out fear.
so I will trade fear for trust.
i will put my hope (tesfa!) in my almighty god.
i will mourn. and I will no doubt bawl my eyes out. but I will trust that god is in control.
he’s got this.
he hasn’t brought us this far to leave us.
he can do immeasurably MORE than all we ask or imagine.
and he will.
8.22
today was really hard.
after my talk with carol last monday (the day that gave me a grey hair) i knew in my heart I am supposed to go home. I felt peace and then I got a new wind & new energy.
it’s was a great (and difficult) week with the boys but I finally felt like I said what I needed to say - asking them if they have truly asked Jesus into their hearts.
I’ve planted the seed & I’ll keep watering it. but now I need to trust Jesus to preform the miracles. he’s the only one who can transform those boys from the inside out.
now - the thought of going home haunts me again.
and reading in Live Dead journal this morning I was really convicted.
it was all about sacrifice - and I realized that it wasn’t as much of a sacrifice for me to be here this summer. I am living out my dream.
it’s Stephen who’s making the sacrifice.
and it seems like, once again, I need to lay aside MY dreams and MY plans for the Lords.
to put my ministry, my boys, and my dreams up on the altar and trust God with them.
I remember last time I gave him my dreams (of getting pregnant)....and I am living in the outcome. God gave me a supernatural love & passion for orphans and for the people of Korah, Ethiopia. and I will NEVER be the same, in Jesus name.
I can’t EVEN imagine my life without camp + asher and my kids in Korah.
can’t. even. imagine.
so, I will give my dreams and passion for being a missionary in Ethiopia to God.
I will respect & honor my husband and our marriage & go home to him.
i will go home to the most important job I have - being a wife!
and I will trust that God honors obedience.
i will pray that He brings me back here, with my husband, very very soon to bring home our precious babies.
the thought of going to the airport (with no doubt a van full of kids in tow) and getting on the plane to America all ALONE haunts me.
but there is no fear in love. perfect love drives out fear.
so I will trade fear for trust.
i will put my hope (tesfa!) in my almighty god.
i will mourn. and I will no doubt bawl my eyes out. but I will trust that god is in control.
he’s got this.
he hasn’t brought us this far to leave us.
he can do immeasurably MORE than all we ask or imagine.
and he will.
Praying for you, Wynne! God is good, and HIS TIMING is always perfect.
ReplyDeleteGirl, I LOVE your heart. I'm learning so much from you. Thank you for sharing... keep it coming.
ReplyDeletePraying for you during this time Wynne! I know it's going to be another huge change. Hopefully you will be able to use the time to rest a little bit before you have 2 babies in the house.
ReplyDeleteP.S. Your kids are adorable!